Yes, it is Grandma591 and I am still alive and full of LIFE!

Hello Everyone, It is me again and yes I am apologizing again for having been away for such a very long time. It is now June of the year 2010 and as I write this I thought I would let you know how my life has been going. As I left off a long time ago (about 2 years ago), my daughter still is not talking to me and I still do not know what to do about it. I have tried emailing her, calling her and she either does not answer my emails or hangs up on me. I don't even know what 3 of my beautiful granddaughters look like or how old they are. It hurts an awfully lot because I love her so much! I will be honest with all of you, I simply cannot do what she wants me to do; but I would really like for my granddaughters to be able to know their Grandma and how much she loves and misses all 4 of them!! It all started years ago with her telling me something that had happened to her years ago(something that included my husband) and I just did not believe her. In my heart, I did not and still do not believe that that what she said happened, happened. So she told me that until I believed her and did what she wanted me to do-I would have NO contact with her, her husband and my 4 beautiful granddaughters. I know in my heart that it did not happen, I have felt since this all began that my heart knew what was right. So I have lost contact with my daughter and her entire family! I have prayed about this for so long and my answer keeps coming right back to my original belief. I suppose that some would say that I should atomatically haved believed her(because she is my daughter); and then there are some that say that kids do not lie about things like this and in her defense, I have rarely ever heard her tell a lie. But something in what she told me and how she told me and when she told me said that there is no way it happened like she said. I am not saying she lied, maybe she does believe that it really happened; but for the life of me and all the love that I have for her-I just still do not believe that this happened. Should I be penalized for the rest of my life because I do not believe her? Should I have been given this type of punishment(loss of her love and loss of all contact with her and her family for the entire span of my life?). I have always believed in my kids and I have always backed them up-but this time-I could not. I am so very sorry for everything, but I still do LOVE HER!!! Maybe someday???? I pray for all of this to end and that she might see toit that sometime in the near future she will talk to me again and let me see and know my granddaughters. Anyone out there, am I wrong? I don't believe that I am. God Bless from all of my HEART!!!!! Grandma591